You have to be ALIVE to write - Graham Nash

First steps are the hardest. I have not been at work this year...and I was planning that this year would be better - sigh. Well, I'm back now. 3 days a week for the time being. I got really sick this winter. Thyroid was off. Bloodwork was off. Heart was off. I struggled to keep up over Christmas and blamed the weather...When I finally called my sister - who had to abandon the two children she has custody of...find a ride to the city - and come to my rescue...we went to the dr and found out my bloodwork was a total mess. I was scared. Suddenly it occurred to me that things might not get better. I remembered the days of watching my mother struggle after a life changing stroke - the life she knew and her abilities snatched away forever...I became afraid. We take things for granted. The past couple of weeks I've been spending my time wrapping crystals. Awesome job...if I do say so. I can't wait to show off my handiwork to my sis. I've been feeling a bit better. For now, my world is still pretty small. I survived the winter and the hard times. I count my blessings.