Don't postphone happiness!

The good news is - "...trying and failing will eventually lead to trying and succeeding".

Instead of dwelling on how I ended up where I was, I imagine where I want to be and the accompanying feeling of achievement.

For me, I imagine the immense feeling of leading a horse out of the stable. The huge rush, anticipation and connectedness - the "Look at me! I own the world!" feeling.

In the words of a great musical "Don't dream it - Be it!".

Instead of attempting / trying to, one day, Get THERE - just make this moment your own - RIGHT NOW.

Don't postphone happiness.

No more waiting! It's already here! Take the magic with you - don't put it on a pedestal for "some day" - put it in your pocket for right now!

If you are reading this, I hope you find it helpful.

C.S. Lewis wrote:

"Everyday in a life fills the rest of the life with anticipation and memory, and these are that day".

Hold on to the good ones and replay them like a favorite song.

You have to be ALIVE to write - Graham Nash

First steps are the hardest. I have not been at work this year...and I was planning that this year would be better - sigh. Well, I'm back now. 3 days a week for the time being. I got really sick this winter. Thyroid was off. Bloodwork was off. Heart was off. I struggled to keep up over Christmas and blamed the weather...When I finally called my sister - who had to abandon the two children she has custody of...find a ride to the city - and come to my rescue...we went to the dr and found out my bloodwork was a total mess. I was scared. Suddenly it occurred to me that things might not get better. I remembered the days of watching my mother struggle after a life changing stroke - the life she knew and her abilities snatched away forever...I became afraid. We take things for granted. The past couple of weeks I've been spending my time wrapping crystals. Awesome job...if I do say so. I can't wait to show off my handiwork to my sis. I've been feeling a bit better. For now, my world is still pretty small. I survived the winter and the hard times. I count my blessings.