Forever Girl

Today I just feel like playing the guitar.  You know that feeling when you really just want to get inside something?  My fingers are aching to feel the pressure on the strings - to let whatever that thing is possess me and take me to the place I need to be.  I guess that's really it.  I need to feel confident that I can go to that place - and it's really where I belong. 

Give up on trying to "fit in" and make my world fit me, that would suit me fine!  I've been down this road - and from here, I see how the story ends...unfortunately, it ends badly. I hate bad endings.

I've been looking longingly at apts on horse farms - when my job is up... 

I like my job, but it's really just a source of income.  Like renting out my rooms...my OTHER job.  Laura - back to two jobs again and looking for more.  Yep, that's my consistent M.O...  Not complaining, it's okay, could use some fairy dust please!  But I guess it's up to me to make my own fairy dust!  That's okay too - I have the receipe down pat!  You need to be careful with fairy dust! 

In life, it seems, we are constantly trading one set of  problems for another - sigh.

It's nice to be in the place I'm at, but it's not forever.  Right now, my experience tells me that nothing is FOREVER.  I don't really believe that.  For better or worse...

I'm a FOREVER girl - it's what I am.