Thursday, March 26, 2015
Just Sayin'
"We have two lives - the one we learn from and the one we live after that..” - Bernard Malamud, The Natural.
“We don’t stop playing because we grow old; we grow old because we stop playing.” – George Bernard Shaw
“Courage is going from failure to failure without losing enthusiasm.” – Winston Churchill
...a lot can happen between Now & Never... - Peter Balish to Sansa Stark.
Don't be too hasty to judge us by our past; our futures have yet to be written. Tom Mason - Falling Skies
“We both started out in the same place,You can come back from this, I know you can. This can’t be it, it can’t be. You gotta be able to come back from this.” - Rick, The Walking Dead (Episode: Clear)
"Don't be afraid of things that scare you!" Laurabythe lake
"We are here, this is now" - Planet of the Apes
"You get what you get" - Laurabythelake
“I worry that when I die my partner will sell my stuff for what I said I paid for it”- Anon.
"It doesn't matter how rich you are, you can always be broke. Happily, the reverse is also true." - Laurabythelake
"I'm pretty sure I don't what to be where I'm going." - Anon.
Monday, March 23, 2015
the colour of melting snow...
Toronto, March 23, 2015.
On the train this morning I picked up on a lady's energy - felt like a-steamroller-going-a-hundred-miles-an-hour. In contrast, my own energy is like a fluffy cloud. I will admit to being envious of her Full-Steam-Ahead... I have only a vague idea of where my ahead lies. Day-after-day my footsteps lead me down the same paths I've walked for years. I like to notice colours: the sun reflecting off glass and brick or melting snow...Exactly what colour is that anyway?
Buildings go up and come down, people come and go. Still, I have no idea where I'm really going. I'm just doing, for now. I don't believe that can be a good thing. I make changes to my world, but nothing really changes. It's all water to the sea. The tree falls in the forest and if I'm not there to hear it, it's just the sound of the forest. As I am the sound the of city. A city which is really a ravenous animal that consumes my life.
Time rolls on. As soon as I climb out of my boat, I'm getting a horse. I am determined I will ride into the sunset...wherever that goes. Just chasin' the rainbows end. My sister is hoping for something more concrete for me. My main focus is one step at a time. She forgets, that's how you run!
One piece at-a-time and one day the puzzle will reveal itself (hope hope). Like reading tea leaves, I peer to see the secret revealed... the colour of melting snow.
On the train this morning I picked up on a lady's energy - felt like a-steamroller-going-a-hundred-miles-an-hour. In contrast, my own energy is like a fluffy cloud. I will admit to being envious of her Full-Steam-Ahead... I have only a vague idea of where my ahead lies. Day-after-day my footsteps lead me down the same paths I've walked for years. I like to notice colours: the sun reflecting off glass and brick or melting snow...Exactly what colour is that anyway?
Buildings go up and come down, people come and go. Still, I have no idea where I'm really going. I'm just doing, for now. I don't believe that can be a good thing. I make changes to my world, but nothing really changes. It's all water to the sea. The tree falls in the forest and if I'm not there to hear it, it's just the sound of the forest. As I am the sound the of city. A city which is really a ravenous animal that consumes my life.
Time rolls on. As soon as I climb out of my boat, I'm getting a horse. I am determined I will ride into the sunset...wherever that goes. Just chasin' the rainbows end. My sister is hoping for something more concrete for me. My main focus is one step at a time. She forgets, that's how you run!
One piece at-a-time and one day the puzzle will reveal itself (hope hope). Like reading tea leaves, I peer to see the secret revealed... the colour of melting snow.
Tuesday, February 24, 2015
What I will be...
I've frequently looked at things and thought "oh this would be nice to do when I'm older..." And, I deligently put things away for when that time might come. I have to say, it is interesting now to see the STUFFS that now serve to remind me of exactly who I am.
It appears this has been an underlying quest, to discover who I am. When I was younger, I frequently shifted my job so that I could be "in the real world". And, was never able to quite figure out what that meant. Was it the glamorous office job, or the 9-1 floppy bar gig that I pursued? I have always lived on the perimeter; never really committing to either.
I read somewhere that people are either builders or caretakers. As I have, apparently, failed at being a caretaker, I must be a builder....
What kind of world should I build. So far, I have populated it with a trio of cats and a funny dog. Cartoon characters all. I share my space with students. I like people who aspire. I make jewelry to give away, because it is my gift and privilege to do so. I have very few friends. I don't live in any persons pocket. I am happy to have my OWN opinion.
I know my grandparents would be proud of me, and that's something that makes me feel very good about myself.
I have made mistakes. I openly apologize for ALL of them. I may have done some on purpose. I was WRONG. At least, I was trying.
I believe in LOVE. Even though, in this life, I appear to be doomed to live alone. I have a pure heart and I am loyal - much to my detriment. I can't change.
I've worked hard, and am committed to always doing so.
What are we, if not the fruit of our labours? Some labours are more fruity than others....
It appears this has been an underlying quest, to discover who I am. When I was younger, I frequently shifted my job so that I could be "in the real world". And, was never able to quite figure out what that meant. Was it the glamorous office job, or the 9-1 floppy bar gig that I pursued? I have always lived on the perimeter; never really committing to either.
I read somewhere that people are either builders or caretakers. As I have, apparently, failed at being a caretaker, I must be a builder....
What kind of world should I build. So far, I have populated it with a trio of cats and a funny dog. Cartoon characters all. I share my space with students. I like people who aspire. I make jewelry to give away, because it is my gift and privilege to do so. I have very few friends. I don't live in any persons pocket. I am happy to have my OWN opinion.
I know my grandparents would be proud of me, and that's something that makes me feel very good about myself.
I have made mistakes. I openly apologize for ALL of them. I may have done some on purpose. I was WRONG. At least, I was trying.
I believe in LOVE. Even though, in this life, I appear to be doomed to live alone. I have a pure heart and I am loyal - much to my detriment. I can't change.
I've worked hard, and am committed to always doing so.
What are we, if not the fruit of our labours? Some labours are more fruity than others....
Tuesday, January 27, 2015
Valentines...
As hard as you work, you can't EARN love. Try as you might, you can't MAKE someone love you. Because you WANT love, it doesn't mean you'll GET it. You might even HAVE love, it doesn't mean you WANT it. You can GIVE love, still you might not GET love in return.
Love is.
It bends and shapes itself over time. You can put it away, but in the end, it's undeniable. Its part of entanglement. Hell, maybe it is entanglement. If you love someone who is HORRIBLE, it doesn't matter. You will still love them. You can be an excellent person, but you might be VOID of love. When you ask for love, it can come from unexpected places. If you are lucky or unlucky, it's something that happens, if you want it to or not.
One thing is for certain...we don't DESERVE love.
There is no before love, and no after love.
It has a quantum quality. It either is - or it isn't; and, exists as both simultaneously.
This is what I have come to know about Love.
Happy Valentines.
Love is.
It bends and shapes itself over time. You can put it away, but in the end, it's undeniable. Its part of entanglement. Hell, maybe it is entanglement. If you love someone who is HORRIBLE, it doesn't matter. You will still love them. You can be an excellent person, but you might be VOID of love. When you ask for love, it can come from unexpected places. If you are lucky or unlucky, it's something that happens, if you want it to or not.
One thing is for certain...we don't DESERVE love.
There is no before love, and no after love.
It has a quantum quality. It either is - or it isn't; and, exists as both simultaneously.
Though I speak with the tongues of men and of angels... yet have not love...I Corinthians:13
I am nothing.
This is what I have come to know about Love.
Happy Valentines.
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