I read somewhere that my most important role in this lifetime is to truly know and understand - ME.
Interesting. With every little thing screaming and grabbing for my attention, how well do I really know myself?
I'm pretty sure I thought I knew, once upon a time...
It's true. I have often let events and places frame who I am.
At some level, we ALL get stuck in a rut.
My sister LOVED my recent batch of handmade jewellery. It was a joy to see her try and sort out favorites.
I really fretted over this batch. For months I was like rumpelstiltskin bent over my bench...questioning the relevance of what I was making. My friendly dogwalker lady quipping and offering wry observations; day-after-day I poured through piles of tiny rhinestones to glue to bottlecaps.
In the end, it all turned out for the best. I'm happy - and ready - to present the latest and greatest on my etsy site.
It's been a long time coming. I finally feel my life is making sense, and I have direction.
I'm sad to be alone at this time in my life, but I am proud to be a North American woman - independent, opinionated and ABLE to deal on my own. I have to accept that maybe this, being alone, is part of what that means.
What I have come to understand about myself is that I don't give up - I find a way. It's not always pretty. I'm not always pretty, but I am ME...and I will find a way.
It's hard to accept when things can't be fixed. The future awaits, make the moments count.
From last night's episode of Defiance..
The lady mayor in response to difficult decisions...
"...sometimes, just not giving up is enough."
